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(3 x comment) wow im updating this thing. [23 Feb 2006|02:02am] [ mood | content ] [ music | Halo - Haley James Scott (One Tree Hill) ] i miss livejournal like woah. i havent updated in almost a year. well in the past year and a half ive done some soul searching and really have changed. ive been so depressed for 2 years that i just got a wake up call and said wow this is really dumb and i dont even know why im getting all worked up over nothing. stuff that happend isnt going to change its just going to change the way i view things. so then i realized that a lot of people waste their life away by sitting and being depressed and half the time we dont know why we are depressed. we just are for no reason and then we try to drag people down in our own misery. its not worth it to be honest. i believe everything happens for a reason good or bad and the reason being is they were meant to happen. and if nothing was meant to happen then why does it happen at all? in these last 6 mnths i dont think ive been happier. ive just been free i guess. not tied down to anything. not sitting at home crying because a friend told me what i needed to hear and i think its amaizng the way we can be one person one year and transfer into this whole different person. ive never noticed a mature side to me until i started doing well in school and dating a guy 2 years older than me (who i love to death) i think some of us need wake up calls and really need to focus on who they are and how they want to be remembered in this world... ya know. i dont know im just rambling. im the only creep who goes on line at 2:08 in the morning. what can i say. ha. well its been a good update i will defintely keep up. peace out.

(1 x comment) [27 May 2005|04:09pm] havent been on this thing in a while....hmmm everything has been going amazing these past couple of weeks. idk ive just been so happy with everything but then...its like at school everything is carefree but then at home its like..blah nd not wanting to be there and idk. there is so much crap that i just dont wanna deal with but i know it needs to be dealt with and i dont want to deal with it. i just wanna leave it alone and not care about it but then its like im giving up on that person and its not like me but i dont wanna care. i dont. whateverrrrr..

(comment) [16 May 2005|02:49pm] hershey trip sucked...bre and aja. i love you.

(3 x comment) Eff you. [10 May 2005|06:26pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | Broadway - Goo Goo Dolls. ] They painted up your secrets, with the lies they told to you, and the least they ever gave you,was the most you ever knew, and I wonder where these dreams go when the world gets in your way, what's the point in all this screaming, no one's listening anyway, your voice is small and fading, and you hide in here unknown, and your mother loves your father, cause she's got nowhere to go and she wonders where these dreams go, cause the world got in her way, what's the point in ever trying nothing's changing anyway, they press their lips against you, and you love the lies they say, and I tried so hard to reach you, but you're falling anyway, and you know I see right through you, cause the world gets in your way, what's the point in all this screaming, you're not listening anyway. EFF YOU!

(2 x comment) [26 Apr 2005|10:34pm] okay heres an idea to all...just stop and leave me alone. okay? okay? no comments no nothing just leave me be and we all can be on our merry way

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